So I sit here with a lot on my mind and the only thing I know to do is write. So here I am. These past few weeks haven't been easy for me. Granted, I don't handle stress well but they have been tough, emotionally and physically. My body isn't used to manual labor, call me lazy but I haven't been exposed to that kind of work in years, or really ever. I love my new internship but it is hard work. During these weeks school has been at one of its toughest peaks, with papers and midterms galore. The desire to make no mistakes and the pressure to succeed is unbearable. My computer, which I rely upon for most of my school work crashed during this time period. I remember sitting down in tears that particular afternoon wondering when I was going to get a break. It was just recently car trouble, now computer repairs, on top of work and school and just this thing we call life. It is disappointing that my reaction to my troubles was "When am I going to get a break?" and not "Lord, how can I glorify you through this?"
However, my worries often times get the best of me. I worry about my grades. I worry about my relationships. I worry about finances. I worry about my family back home. I worry about anything and everything there is to worry about, even the many things I can't control. Instead of fully putting my faith and hope in Christ, and relying upon Him, I carry everything with me, which is where the emotional exhaustion comes into play and the very reason for my reaction to a simple computer problem.
So, today my prayer is that I will take to heart one of my favorite bible verses, Philippians 4:6-7, and apply it to my life. I'm in a season of growing and entering into a deeper and much longed for relationship with Christ. Your prayers are welcomed during this time!
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. - Philippians 4:6-7